I have been putting off teaching Madison to sleep through the night. For a few different reasons. The last few months I have been knowing that SHE was ready and if I didn't help her - I would probably miss my window of opportunity and just making it harder for her and me down the road. But I still wasn't ready. My reasons for not wanting her to sleep through the night:
1) She woke up any where between 3:30 and 5:00 am to eat. She ate quickly and went right back to sleep. Then when she woke up at 7:00 am for the day she wasn't hungry. I didn't have to feed her right then. She came down stairs with me and played with toys while I read my scriptures, got the other kids breakfast, and got our morning together. She ate her solid breakfast before I nursed her in the morning right before her nap. The schedule worked great.
2) I wasn't having a hard time waking to feed her. It didn't make me more tired. So no real motivation there.
3) I knew I would be sad when she stared sleeping through the night - I just wasn't sure why. I had heard other mom's of several children say because it was "precious quiet alone time" - but I didn't feel that way. She rarely opened her eyes and I was always half asleep, plus we do get a lot of alone time everyday. After some soul searching I realized I didn't want her to start sleeping through the night because then she would become one of "them". A kid. She would just start going to bed at 8:00 and sleep until 7:00 - just like the other kids. I would have four kids, and no baby.
I never cared about that before because at this point with all my other babies I was either pregnant or trying to get pregnant - so I was happily shuffling them into the next stage of "kid" to make room for the new "baby". But I am not pregnant, I am not going to get pregnant, and if I don't have a baby... I don't think I will know what to do with myself. I warn you that I might have a lot of posts in the next year or so as I come to terms with not having a baby or being pregnant. Hope it doesn't get to whiny.
Anyways, so after putting it off as long as possible I realized SHE needed it. All the signs were there. So on Wednesday we launched "Operation: Sleep Through the Night".
Since she is my longest child to still get fed in the night - I thought I would need a more thought out game plan, (with the others it just kind of came naturally) so this would be a 2 phase operation.
Phase one: Learn to not eat. This would mean going in and just giving her her binky and blanket everytime she cried BEFORE 3:30, but not pick her up. Then after 3:30 - do what ever I need to do (hold, rock, sleep with, etc) but not feed her. (If this was not working and she was up crying every night from 3:30 on, I was prepared to start feeding her, but gradually giving her less and less every night). Hopefully phase one would last about a week.
Phase two: Once she was no longer waking up to eat and would easily go back to bed with just a binky and a blanket - it is time to get her to put herself back to sleep. This is very personalized to each child. Some I let cry, some I knew that didn't help. I am not sure what my plan is going to be with Madison. I need to do some contemplating to know what will help Madison sleep best.
We are still in phase one. The last 2 nights I haven't fed her and she has only woken up twice and both times I never had to pick her up. She just took a binky. So far things are looking great.
UPDATE: I started writing this post on March 29. Things were going great. Now on April 5 - things are terrible. Still not feeding her - but she is up about 15 times a night and has ended up sleeping with me every night - just so I don't have to stand up to give her a binkey - but she is still waking up every 20 minutes or so. I was HOPING she was getting teeth or something - but no such luck. We are definitely out of phase one - but I don't think phase two is going very well. Madison's problem right now is that she has really learned to crawl, roll, sit (from laying down), and pull herself up to standing. It is almost like she is addicted to doing these things and won't just sleep - but HAS to move all around and get herself stuck. Every 20 minutes I go back in there and she is in some crazy position. She is silly.
**Update again: It is now April 11 and things are going better. The last 3 nights or so she mostly sleeps all night until 5:00. I give her her binky, she wakes up at 5:30 - binky, and then at 6:00 I feed her and then hop in the shower. That schedule works fine for me. Unfortunately those last three nights I have had my other three up once, twice, or even three times each. So still not getting much sleep - but that is kind of expected in this phase of life... right?? But Maddie is doing well and I think soon will be sleeping until 6:00. I think the goal is just to be consistent and not get frustrated - eventually they will follow suit.