I turned 39 this year. It is easy to get lost and forget about my birthday. I always know it is "coming up", but am usually surprised when it gets here. As all December birthday people know, it gets swallowed up in Thanksgiving and Christmas - which I have never minded. And while the people in my life go to great lengths to make it special as my family has grown and grown up December takes an unimaginable amount of a mental load - so to even think about my birthday seems like too much work. But one day I was standing outside of Active Athletics after taking Dane and Eve to open gym talking with my friend, Megan, while I kids played on the grass. She said, "hey, your birthday is coming up, would you want to have a nice brunch at my house? I love hosting things and we can invite some women over?" I can't remember what was going on in my life to elicit this reaction, but I started to cry. She felt so bad for me. I told her I was as surprised as she was at my reaction. But the thought of sitting around a beautiful christmas table with my closest friends eating yummy food was just the thing my tired, mommy heart needed. It reminded me that every christmas my mom and the women on her side of that family do this for lunch and it was one of my most favorite Christmas traditions and that I hadn't been in 10 years, and I will likely never go again.

Her table was absolutely beautiful. I love and appreciate people who know how to make things beautiful. It is a talent I do not have, but one I so appreciate in others.
The good was yummy and the company was perfect. I am so grateful to Megan for hosting.
I am also grateful to the women who came. I have good friends here in Colorado who I love and I know love me. below: Leslie, Mandy, Lara, Whitney, Me, Marisa (above is Megan, who hosted, and her baby Jane.)
THEN, my sweet, amazing, wonderful, handsome, generous, husband took me to my most favorite place to do my most favorite thing: spend 200 dollars at PF Changs ALL FOR ME!!!! I am not kidding. I order everything I want. I eat one serving of everything, and then I pack it all up and eat it for lunches over the next week. I am just looking at this picture over and over again and getting hungrier and hungrier. I think Chinese food is my love language.
THEN.... as if spending 200 dollars on dinner for me isn't enough! We have a WHOLE DAY celebration of me where Jason does everything! He does all the parenting, cooking, cleaning, and child care. For breakfast he made German pancakes (usually french toast bake, but i was in the mood for something different) then for dinner the most amazing salmon you have ever eaten and asphalt pie for dessert.

My kids gave me really thoughtful gifts this year.
I have really come to want my children to buy me gifts. Years ago I would have thought that was self centered or something but I want to know that they took some time to really think about me and what I would love. They did a great job this year!
And the man who makes it ALL possible.
39 has been a pretty good year. I can't believe I am almost 40. I don't feel at all what I think 40 should feel like.