Girl!! I got poppers for the kids to pull on to fin out. I recorded it so didn't get much pictures of the actual reveal. Then we ate pink cupcakes. (I made a GF one for Megan)
(Noah is in a suit because he had a class presentation that day)
Everyone was excited - even Dane.
Feelings - I honestly can't remember if I have posted my boy or girl debate on the blog or not. Truth is I wanted one more of each (but I don't want 7). I really wanted a boy for Dane. I had my other kids in groups of 2 so it just made sense. Most of the kids wanted a boy for the same reason. But when I looked at the big picture for our family - 20 years down the road - I wanted 3 girls. I went in to the appointment expecting it to be a boy and being fine with that. When they said "its a girl" I all of the sudden felt very overwhelmed and sad. The reality of raising both a boys and a girl all over again seemed so hard. 2 boys would have been so much easier. I could hardly listen or pay attention to the rest of the ultra sound because all I could think about was how hard it was going to be. How much more stuff was going to be in the house. The clothes, toys, room sharing, bows, prettiness, etc. I felt consumed and like I was drowning, it was hard to breath. Jason had to go to work after the appointment so I had to drive home alone. When I got in the car and had a minute to myself I realized that I felt at peace. This is what my heart truly wanted.... another girl. Had it been a boy I would have felt uneasy about being "done" and always wondered "what if". But all of those emotions were gone. I felt complete. I finally allowed myself to acknowledge that what our family really needed was another girl. And it was what I really wanted. I am so so so happy that she is coming to our family. And while it does make things harder... she will be worth it.
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