The Newborn Thing

Newborns are hard. Let me give you a little background.

Last summer I was at my friend Jess' house. Brock was just a newborn and she was pregnant with her second. Brock was fussy and I was struggling with him trying to soothe him. I looked at Jess and said, "are you ready to do this newborn thing again?", she replied that she was. In my mind I thought, "are you crazy? Who WANTS to do this??"

Then about 6 weeks ago (a week before Noah was born), I was in Sacrament meeting and I was watching a new mom standing in the back struggling to soothe her newborn. I thought to myself "I am so exited for that - I can't wait for Noah to be born and do the whole newborn thing again."

I have come full circle again in thinking, "are you crazy? Who WANTS to do this??"

For my disclaimer - Noah is a good baby, we are very lucky. But no matter how good the baby is, newborns are just hard - especially when you are right in the middle of it. After so many days of no sleep, fussing, non-stop diaper changes, engorgement, and spit-up, everything seems hard. I just wish I knew what he wanted. I felt like I knew what Brock wanted more than this. I just feel like I am grasping at straws trying to figure out Noah - I still don't know if he likes to be swaddled or not, I don't really know what way he likes to be held, or if he likes his binky. He seems to change his preferences everyday. I keep looking foreword to about month 4 or 5 - If I remember right that is when things get fun. But I LOVE having Noah so little - so it is a double edge sword - and there is nothing better than a little newborn cuddled up in your arms. I guess that is why we keeping wanting to do the whole newborn thing over and over again.